12-8-13: Full Moon - Halloween Challenge V
Hmm.. I don’t really have any comments, but that I’m unsure if I like it or not. Let me know what you think! Thanks.
To the anon: Sadly, tumblr is not allowing me to reply to you directly so here is my reply:
Please don’t apologize; you have nothing to be sorry for! Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs. My beliefs go beyond my previous post, and I apologize if it seemed as if I was downgrading Christianity. That certainly wasn’t my intention. (I’ve also edited my last post to minimize scrutiny on my previous faith) I am an eclectic witch and so I still believe many aspects from Christianity, such as Jesus, but a little differently from how Christians view him. I hope you understand that my intention from my last post was to tell everyone, whatever religion you may follow, whoever you are, that we must all work together to create harmony, because whether you practice Christianity, Buddhism, Hinduism etc. we are all still one. Whether you believe we are one by the interconnections of our actions affecting the world around us, or by the fact that we are all made by the hand of God, or merely because we all live together on this earth, we are all one.
P.S. I will delete this post after a day or two. I’ve created a comment section, so people can freely voice their thoughts, but I have no idea if it will allow anon comments. I’m unsure if I’ll have it permanently, but I’ll just try it out see how it works.
12-7-13: All is one, and one is all.
“Water, Carbon, Ammonia, Lime, Phosphorous, Salt, Saltpeter, Sulfur, Magnesium, Fluorine, Iron, and Aluminum right. Right. The body’s only a combination of those simple elements. Nothing more. We’re destined to be decomposed by bacteria, and become nutrients for plants, then you follow the process further, those plants nourish herbivores and those herbivores nourish carnivores. Even others like us. And even though we lose awareness our lives keep on moving through the system. The great flow that maintains the universe, call it cycle of life, the course of nature, each one of us is just a small part of that part. One in the all. Yet without all the individual ones, the all can’t exist. This world flows by following grander laws that we can’t even imagine. To recognize that flow, to work in it, to decompose, and recreate, that is alchemy.”
– Edward Elric
It’s pretty amazing how this anime has changed the course of my life. My family is Catholic and I too was a strong believer of the Christian-God, but throughout high school I was left troubled with my beliefs. I kept running into contradictions. I couldn’t believe in a God that punished people for their “sins”. I couldn’t even believe hell, hell! I didn’t even believe sin! I didn’t believe that there are people who are more worthy than others - people who deserved to go to Heaven and the others sent to hell. It just didn’t make sense.
Over the span of a few years, I have come to learn a way to live that molds by beliefs. I’ve come to learn that “All is one, and one is all” and that we are “the universe pretending to be individuals”, said by Deepak Chopra. So no matter who you are, what you have done, what you practice - we are all one.
“When you live in the forest, diamonds lose their value. They are no more precious than anything else. It is all the same: the life, the value, of everything is equal, is as important as the next. Even my human life was equal to that of a fly eaten by a frog in the eyes of a tiger who knows only hunger, which was the same burning hunger as mine”
– Music through the Dark
“A human being is part of the whole called by us ‘universe’, a part limited in time and space. We experience ourselves, our thoughts and feelings as something separate from the rest. A kind of optical delusion of consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from the prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty. The true value of a human being is determined by the measure and the sense in which they have obtained liberation from the self. We shall require a substantially new manner of thinking if humanity is to survive.”
- Albert Einstein
Now, I’m not saying my beliefs are the absolute truth, but I can say I am no longer troubled. Confused, I still may feel, but it’s a confusion that derives from the hunger to understand more. I want to learn more about the ways of the universe and my life-long goal is to share with the world what I have learned. I want to show through my art, writings and career that we are not alone, that we are one and we must work together to complete the task that Einstein had mentioned.
11-27-13: Halloween Challenge - Abandoned Home
I haven’t been at all feeling inspired to write, but I had a dream about someone I cared about. I wanted to continue with the description of the abandoned home, but my main focus isn’t the person she became, but more of who she was and how much she meant to me. Like how an abandoned home holds memories of all the lives that lived there. It is not merely a construction of wooden walls, but a collection of good and bad memories.
11-23-13: Tattoo Sketch
So I’m trying to design a personal tattoo that represents my beliefs and this is my first rough draft. I was inspired by Takato Yamamoto’s artwork and like I said, this is my first rough draft and it will evolve so it will no longer be a copy of Yamamoto’s work.
This tattoo design is supposed to represent “All is one”, ying yang, higher self, and witchcraft.
❝We must use whatever methods we can to understand the movement of the universe around us and time our actions so that we are not fighting the currents, but moving with them.❞
We are constantly fighting the currents and pushing because we are blinded with what we believe we desire. Our desires are molded and designed by the people that we surround ourselves with, by loneliness, by the economy, by lust, by society’s standards and we are left believing that this artificial creation is actually our true desire.
❝The Taoist teaches that the “superior man” finds his ultimate reality in the center of “self”. But this cannot be obtained except through placing oneself in harmony with the rhythms of the universe.❞
- Van Over
The center of “self” is your higher-self and it is in sync with the rhythms of the universe. It knows what you truly desire, what you need and if you listen to your higher-self, you too will be in sync with the universe.
An example, you can fight with the universe as you try to become a doctor because you believe this is actually what you want to do, but the universe keeps setting you back from reaching it. The problem is you don’t realize that this dream of “yours” is not actually yours. You fear that you won’t be successful or you won’t have security and so you believe this is actually what you desire, but it is an artificial desire. In actuality your desire is to help people, but the universe has many paths for you that you can take, paths that allow you to help people and paths that you will actually enjoy taking.
Quiet your mind and focus on how you feel, don’t think, feel. Feel the course of the water, and flow with it. Feel the emotions that flow through your body and you will know what it is that you truly desire and follow it. This way, you are not fighting the currents, but you are moving with them. Listen to your intuition: this is your higher-self speaking to you and it is whispering in your ear the secrets to flow with the universe and all you have to do is listen.
❝I follow the Way of the water instead of imposing a course of my own… I do it without knowing how I do it…❞
- Lieh Tzu
I went to a local bookstore over the weekend and I purchased these three books for $8.00. A deal right! Sadly though I was able to pay an inexpensive price because the store is closing. I’ll most likely be back before they close. I’m pretty excited to read these!
The Witchcraft and Practical Magic book includes: history of witchcraft from all over the world, review of rituals, and a few practical spells. The Women’s Book of Healing covers healing through the use of auras, chakras, and gemstones. One of my goals is to become a healer so I’m pretty excited about this book!
From those two books I’ll most likely take notes and post my thoughts. So please look forward to them!
The first step to getting what you want is having the courage to get rid of what you don’t.
I’ve been so afraid to speak my mind. I was afraid my thoughts would hurt others, but by protecting others, I was hurting myself. I was also afraid that once I spoke freely, others would judge me. It is true, once your thoughts escape your tongue, you are naked. It’s worth it though.
Find the courage to confront your mother about how she doesn’t support your dreams, find the courage to rid yourself of that toxic boyfriend/girlfriend, find the courage to tell your friend that he/she doesn’t lend an open ear, and find the courage to be true to yourself.
Once we do, we open ourselves to the possibility of harsh words, and heart ache, but believe me, it’s worth it. Because even if you open the door to a cruel ending, you also open the door to a brighter future. Don’t be afraid. Have courage.
"There’s no certainty, only opportunity."
11-10-13: Friends - keep them or leave them?
I used to believe that I chose my family. I used to believe that the family I was given, I didn’t need. I was wrong. Yes, the friends I choose can become hypothetically my sisters and brothers, but I am bound by blood with my biological sister and biological brothers. Their genetics are sculpted like mine. They are in my life for a reason.
On the other hand, I have the choice to remain in the lives of my friends or I have the choice to leave them in my past. The questions I always ask myself, never silence.
Should I sacrifice myself for this person, or should I let them go?
Am I truly this person’s friend, as they perceive me to be?
I think we can be blinded by the fear of being alone, but being alone is a gift we must give ourselves if the relationship we are in is tarnishing our soul. Do not forget though - you too have the power to harm others, make sure you are being the best friend that you have the capability of being.
A possible guideline that you can follow to realize whether you should leave or not. Also this guideline can make you realize if you are the friend that should be left behind:
- They take, and never give: In a friendship, we shouldn’t be counting how many times we paid for our friend’s meals, or the gas money that should be owed when hanging out. If they are not only costing you money, but also focused only on their own problems and never ask yours, then there is an imbalance in the friendship. There should be a mutual understanding that when a friend needs help, you’ll be there and vice versa.
- A convenient friend: You are constantly calling your friend to make plans and they only agree to spend time with you when it is convenient for them or they call you only when they are in need. Remember though, if your friend has important obligations to attend to, then give them space, but if they are constantly putting you as a second choice , it is time to let go of them.
- Values and interests do not coincide: If values and interests do not coincide, it is difficult to express yourself completely. You or your friend may feel the need to sacrifice themself to create a “harmonized” relationship, which is not healthy for either of you.
- They are emotionally depleting: You should be there for your friend when they are at their lowest, but if your friend is constantly focusing on the negative even after you confront them about it, it is time to move forward.
- Drive you to insanity – If your friend’s actions bother you and you can’t bring yourself to accept them for what they do, or if you don’t have the courage to confront them about their actions then these are obvious pointers that your friendship is not a healthy one.
- They are unsupportive – At first I believed that we should tell our friends to not make the decisions we believe aren’t the right choice, but it is not your decision to make. We should always support our friends even if they make mistakes. Let them learn and be there for them when they need you. Of course you can tell them other options they can take, but don’t make them feel that they are doing something wrong. If your friend isn’t doing this, it may be time to reconsider your friendship.
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11-9-13: Sketch Preview
A sneak-peek at my current sketch. I’ve been reading A Dance with Dragons and have been inspired by the children of the forest - Bran’s point of view bored me before, but his meeting with the greenseer has fascinated me. I’ll post the full picture later.